Saturday, January 2, 2010

I HATE BEING HELPLESS!!!

There is nothing in this world that I hate more then bein helpless.. The feeling of knowing that u aren't in a place to help others is the worst feeling I've ever had. I'm not only talking about finacially or physical things.. But mentally... Spiritually... Not being able to help ppl who really need it.. I can offer ALL my love to a person but that's not enough to take away their hurt.. I just wish i could take away the problems.. The past.. And just be able to say.. It's gonna b ok.. But I can't say that becuz I know it's not..

Some mistakes ppl make in their past will haunt them for the rest of their life.. Some will take their life.. I can't change the past so what can I do!? Offering true friendship and true love just doesn't seem like enough I still feel helpless.. Why do I care soo much about other people and other peoples problems!!? I can't help it. I've tried to start focus on myself but it's impossible..

There was a time where I could offer some spiritual advice.. But i can no longer even do that. How am I gonna offer spiritual advice to someone when I need spiritual advice myself.. It literally makes me sick to my stomach worrying about others and their situations.. I care so much to the point where I feel like I am in that persons shoes. I feel the hurt they feel.. I feel the pain they feel.. I feel the hopelessness they feel and the feeling of hopelessness that I feel already feel.. is not a good combo...

I see why shrinks always be the ones to go crazy or commit suicide.. becuz altho I'm not a shrink if they care half as much as I do they gotta b REAlLY strong to listen to problems issues and situations and don't let it effect them . I think my problem is that I care waaaaaay to much about other people.. It's a problem I've always had.. I just can't help it. I've basically ruiened my life trying to help others.. Giving up my last giving away my all.. Opening up my life to others.. Ughhhh

Im in a situation now where I feel sooo helpless.. I dunno what to do.. I feel so much for the Individual who has totally opened up to me.. It's too much to take in.. I dunno how to deal w/it.. They are crying out to me for help and I dunno how to give it.. It seems like I have done all I can do.. But even tho they tell me that I am the Main reason they are still alive.. Due to my true friendship..love..loyalty..understanding.. I still feel their pain and it hurts.. I'm at the point where I feel like I have absolutely nothing more to offer then my continued friendship love respect loyalty and understanding..

God please help me

Help the situation

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2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sometimes, the best thing to do is just being there for them. Someone else may be able to offer that particular help u cannot. But u need to decide whether u want to be the tree they can lean on 4 support or the branch that gives out after a while or the leaf which is unstable in times of need.Sometimes, all u need is someone by ur side,knowing u r not alone.

Ashleekeys09 said...

Wow, be strong David be Strong. You're right, caring waaaaaaaaaay to much for a person that can't be helped can bring you down. Especially if its not your fault, your not involved specifically, but emotionally. Sometimes the only thing you can do for Someone is be there for them. Be the one to listen, be the one to give advice, be the one to do what you can. And if you can't give anymore, then you've done you're best. Your best is all anyone can ask for. And even though it maynot seem like its much. Just being there and supporting them when no one else can or will,is more than enough. You're the light in someone elses darkness.

All you can do for someone is your best, and if you've given someone your best and its not enough, than the next best thing would be to find someone else who can proffessional help to.

I think you're doing great by trying to be there and helpful. And you're also helping yourself by expressing yourself and not completely keeping the feelings bottled up inside.

If you ever want to talk, you have my number. Just give me a call or txt me!
~ Ashlee ~

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