i just cant sleep

so as we all know i have a very HARD time sleeping at nite.. lol so i was trying to sleep for HOURS.. then i finally jumped up cuz i decided i couldnt sleep becuz i need to figure otu my money situation..i think thats what keeps me up.. how do i spend.. 400 bucks a week.. it is getting out of control.. i have no control.. but im really excited becuz i think finally after 23 years.. i am taking responsibilities and im stepping down off of my high horse of lavish EXPENSIVE.. BROKE ASS lifestyes lol i wrote up a budget.. and for the first time in my life.. i feel like im actually going to stick to it.. i even made certain amounts of money AUTOMATICALLY come out of my checking account every week so i have no choice... this is HUGE lol anybody who knows me knows that this is a MAJOR thing.. and i ALREADY feel like im growin up! lol.. 2 words i HATE 2 use.. but its true.. and for the first time in all my life i feel REALLY good.. lol i feel like i just got kleen from drugs.. i feel like this is really the first time im actually going to start managing my money.. and managing it correctly.. if i want something.. instead of just going out and buying it.. im gonna save up for it.. or work some overtime lol

i dont think nobody is really going to understand how crazy i was getting.. 400 a week was SMALL compaired to what im used 2 doing and the only reason im not doing what i USED 2 b doing is becuz them funds have been CUT OFF lol.. but finally i think i have realized that im not making as much as i used 2.. i dont have the money that i used 2.. i cant take the trips every week 2 LA and NY and CHI like i used 2.. and wherever else i decided to go on the weekends just becuz.. :( im finally just like the average american.. trying to work hard and live right lol..

its funny becuz money is something that i feel like i NEED.. and im always thinking what i can do 2 get more and more..

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THIS APARTMENT!! THANK GOD I WAS UP!!! (there was about a 10 min gap between and more.. and OMG.. while i flew around my house looking for something to kill this BIG ASS BEETLE!! WIT BIG ASS PINCHERS!!)
omg i HATE..spiders! and beetles wit big ass thinkgs 2 put holes in ppls bodys wit! ugh!!!!!)

sorry n e way that just TOTALLY fuked up my train of thought.. ugh.. i was sayin some shyt about money..that i need.. whatever maybe ill finish wut i was talkin bout later.. u get my drift.. im still shaking lol BYE!

the point in case we didnt get it.. is that i put myself on a budget and a very small one.. that the average working American making my range of cash needs to be on.. so lets see how this works.. ill be sure 2 keep.. myself..updated.. cuz im like the only person who pays attention 2 my post..n e way lol at least for now ;)

and u know what else.. ( i keep popping out the bed 2 add more lol my a.d.d ass) i believe alot of what made me change the way i handle my money had ALOT 2 do with the events of today... my moms.. has been telling me for YEARS.. 2 manage my money.. but i NEVER do.. but today.. the things i did thru out the day.. the things ive seen 2day.. even what i watched on tv.. finally made me realize its time 2 grow up.. and become realistic when it comes to my money.. and i did something today which i dont think ive ever done b4.. and that just showed me that i really can do it.. and after i did what i did.. i felt REALLY good.. and that really sparked this change.. (this is MY blog.. so i know what i did lol.. u are proly confused as hell as 2 what im talkin bout.. dont b tryin 2 figure it out..cuz its nunya bizzzz!) but im just really excited that im FINALLY GROWING UP! UGH.. financially.. never mentally NEVER bye!

~David Lamar~