This Happened Friday The 13th 2010
I was out in Avon Ohio looking at a car when I got a call from my mom that my lil bro had been rushed to the hospital because he LOST his short term memory.. OMG! that was the WORST phone call EVER!
immediately thoughts came flyin thru my head ppl live with this for a lifetime! and its UN fixable! my sister is on the phone with my mom as my mom is giving her information.. and she is CRYING! my sister NEVER cries! EVER! and when i see her crying im starting to get choked up.. but im trying to drive 120 mph on the highway trying not to crash so i gotta keep my eyes DRY.. what happened is.. he was at a skateboard park.. and he fell off of the half pipe and cracked his head and lost his memory.. all im thinkin.. is this is what happened 2 that one actor chick.. who hit her head in a ski accident... was fine.. then died a couple days later.. then that little girl who was playin vollyall got head in the head.. was fine.. then died the next day..
so n e way i get 2 emergency.. and he is sittin in the processing area he sees me and my sister walk and and waves.. he looks VERY confused.. but otherwise he looks fine.. well a few minutes later he comes into the waiting room and looks at me like WHAT are you doing here!??! and im like umm hello u JUST seen me walk in.. but he had no memory of that.. well im sitting across the other side of the waiting room just looking at him.. and talkin 2 my mother about what is going on.. i see him askin my father why he was at the hospital.. and im thinkin omg how much does he remember?? so i finally go over and sit next 2 him.. and im like hey.. he's like hey.. what are you doing here.. im like.. im visiting you.. he's like why.. im like becuz u hit ur head.. he's like i did!?!? im like yes.. he's like OH... did u get a video of it?? im like i wasnt there.. he like OH.. then he gets quiet.. then he is like.. so did u get a video of me falling? im like i wasnt there! he like oh.. then he like.. so why are we here?? im like i just told you.. he like no u didnt.. im like u hit ur head.. and he like i did??? where?? im like at the park.. he like i wasnt at the park.. i was like yes u were.. he was like no i wasnt.. i was like then were are you coming from he was like solon home days..
so i go back to the hospital like an hour later.. he is laying in the bed.. and everybody is in there.. and he is like.. hey what are you doing here.. he had NO memory of me being there earlier .. he didnt remember anything we talked about in the waiting room.. he didnt even remember being in the waiting room.. then out of the blue he goes.. DAD!! who took my shoes off?!?!? who took my pants off!?!? omg this is so embarrassing.. and im like o god.. his mind is STILL gone.. i swear this had 2 b the worst thing in the world.. can u imagine livin wit somebody who doesn't remember ANYTHING and nothing sticks in they mind??
now i wasnt at the park when this happened.. but this is what happened.. my brother was playing on the skate park.. when he fell off the half pipe.. busted his head and passed out.. my little cousin thought he was playing.. so he didnt do nothin.. but when my bro got up and was crying thats when my little cousin got worried.. so they went over and told my aunt.. by this time my brother had stopped crying becuz he didnt know why he was crying..
according 2 another friend who was there.. he walks up 2 the table.. looking very confused.. as my little cuzin told everybody he fell.. they asked if he was ok.. but he not even remembering that he fell.. was like.. uhhh i guess?? so then one of the adults.. thinking of course that this was nothing serious.. was like.. well did u hurt the ground?? did u put a dent in it? lol.. and my bro was like.. i dont know?? and then his eyes fills with tears.. this got everybody worried like ok something is wrong with him.. then he stops crying like why am i crying?? then he asked everybody.. what are we doing at the park???? they all lookin at him like what u mean?? so they told him.. we are just having a end of the summer party.. before school starts again.. .he's like oh... then he sits there.. then he is like why are we here?? they all look at him like he is crazy.. like i just told you!.. he like no u didnt??? so they tell him again... and he is like oh.. then literally a few moments later is is like.. why are we here??? THATS when EVERYBODY got worried.. becuz they are like dude we just told u 2 times in the last 3 minutes u keep asking that.. then he just bust out crying like but i dont remember!!!!! what is happening to me!!!!! everybody saw ok.. he is serious.. becuz of course obviously they thought he was just playing around askin the same questions on purpose.. but then they realized he REALLY didnt remember.. so they called my mom and dad.. who flew 2 the park.. and took him 2 the hospital..
well on the way 2 the hospital.. he is asking my mom OVER and over AND over AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER and over and over what day is it??? what month?? where are we at?? what are we doing? what day is it?? what year? what month?? how did i get in the car?? where are we going?? were are we coming from?? what day is it?? just random things then he starts crying after my mom tells him he fell and hit his head.. and he is crying out of frustration becuz he doesnt remember a thing about being at the park.. or falling.. all he remembers is that he was driving down the street.. and this is when i spoke to my mom and she tells me he lost his short term memory and i fly to the hospital..
the moral of this story.. is you NEVER know when u mite lose somebody u love.. be it Physically or MENTALLY.. and all i could think about is all the times i told him NO for no reason.. all the times he wanted 2 come over and chill wit me and i said NO.. or the times he wanted 2 go out wit me and i said NO.. becuz i DO NOT hang out with my little brother hardly EVER.. and this tore me UP becuz i was thinkin now when i do hang out wit him he isnt even going to remember it! it will be as if we never even hung out.. we will throw him a bday party.. that he wont remember..a proly wont graduate from highschool.. will never learn to drive.. never learn to do so many things.. but most of all wont remember hanging out with family and friends.. just the small things.. thats what messed me up so bad.. even the time i was talking to him at the hospital.. i was on the verge of tears just thinkin.. how could i deal with this the rest of my life??? what type of life will he grow up 2 have?? can i just say again that it was HORRIBLE?!?! the worst thing next to dying is somebody LOSING THEY MIND! and to watch them suffer.. WHEW! i tell u i look at my brother in a whole new light.. from this day on.. im gonna b hangin out wit him more.. doin things wit him more.. sayin YES instead of NO always lol.. this is the first time somethin like this and this extreme has happened 2 him.. so it REALLY opened MY eyes.. becuz he really looks up 2 me.. and he always wants to be around me.. and be wit me.. and do things wit me.. and i LITERALLY NEVER respond.. i push him off.. i say later.. or next time.. instead of taking the time do do things with him when i CLEARLY have the time 2 do them.. i could cry now lol i just feel so bad.. and now i c how quickly things can change.. it just gives me a whole new outlook on life.. and family
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